The Perfect World

For days afterwards, searching through the cobwebs of her mind, she could not quite put her finger on exactly what had done it. What had opened the floodgates on all those tightly suppressed memories of more than a decade ago. She had carefully placed layer upon brittle layer of control and sheer will on those […]

Of Gratitude and a Prayer

Tonight, I am grateful. For so much and more that I struggle with where to start. But the pen has a life of its own and knows exactly where to begin. And so here we are. Grateful for my love, my partner in crime, my friend and my companion on this sometimes delightful and somewhat […]

A tenuous goodbye

Tonight, I said goodbye to you, my friend. Well, a goodbye of sorts really. After all, I wasn’t really walking away anywhere. There is nowhere to go. We were both a little tired, a little dispirited, and I, perhaps a little lost. And you, probably a little surprised. Perhaps that was the reason. When you […]

Let the light in

Our lives are determined by many truths, some accepted, most unacknowledged and hidden and some, we realise only as we grow, are not truths at all. To the human mind, beauty is defined by perfection and the absence of darkness. As a child, the perfection of my mother’s smile was the definition of beauty. And […]

Longing

Longing. What a desolate word. Misleading in its simplicity, and somewhat terrifying in the loneliness that it hints at. Surely that has to be the most futile emotion of all. Unseeing and unfeeling of the great adventure you are living, instead searching and looking, almost blindly, into a memory. Or an illusion? You try to […]

Keeping the faith

Keeping the Faith “Well?” I said. “Well what?” She mocked. “Do you think we will like each other?” I ventured. “Does it matter?” She said, trading my question with another question of her own. It didn’t feel as strange as it should have, having this conversation with my twenty year old self. It felt quite […]

My dream within a dream